I've Got the Joy Joy Joy Joy Down in My Heart

Yes, my heart is full of joy!

The news came a few days ago...

ELIZABETH IS GOING HOME!!!!!

She has a family. I don't know who they are, but I cannot WAIT to find out.  I am still completely set on bringing her home. She is constantly on my mind and in my prayers, and I am thrilled that she is being rescued. Her family is no less than one of superheroes in my book.

For awhile there, I thought she would be ours. I've had such an overwhelming desire to save her, such a burdened heart for her, that I thought, God must be calling us to rescue her. And yet, the obstacles were so great. Barriers that I couldn't have even imagined, making it nearly impossible for us to even have a chance.

And yet, I still felt such utter despair for her, I couldn't let go. I couldn't NOT try to figure out a way. Now, she has a family.  I have my answer; she isn't ours. You know what? That's okay. I'm completely at peace, fully overjoyed, absolutely elated beyond words that there is someone out there, right now, who has said, YES, we are bringing her home.

Who are you? I can't wait for you to speak up.  I can't wait to show you what others have already done to start helping to get her home. I cannot wait to tell this family how much I want to support their journey, that I will do my part in rescuing Elizabeth.  I want this child home, wherever that home may be!

And I am thrilled that I can again travel the road on which I had begun this blog.  Because shortly before I had become burdened over Elizabeth, I had prayed for answers; I had prayed for God to be specific, to let me know if I too, will journey for a child some day. God had shown me a bit of what He has in store. She's out there. I'm positive about it. I know her name, I know her face. And now, I've had to do the one thing that I struggle with more than anything else:
Surrender.

The road I follow is a path that I can't see.  Every now and then, I catch a glimpse, so I run ahead. But each time, I end up completely lost, throwing my hands in the air, realizing that I am getting nowhere.
So now, the lesson is learned. Instead of taking my own road, I've surrendered to a guide. I choose Him. He is my shepherd, and I am the sheep.  Helpless without my master, I am letting Him take complete control, and I'm following wherever He may lead. No more running ahead, no more thinking I know the way.

I surrender all.